Tired

I used to be a person with a plan. I always plan about my future, made sure that I know where I want to go..specially career wise..

Now I have been lost... My current company destroyed my career path (yes RCG IT did that!)

Ok, yeah, I'm stupid for allowing them to do so...I need money.. I just need enough, for me to hand in my resignation...

I'm emotionally ready... anytime I can do it...

I'm tired, and RCG IT would be my last company, really don't have plans to find a new one.. my businesses are stable now... but since I don't have enough time to focus on them, I'm not earning as much as I am getting as an employee... I'm thinking if I should wait a couple of months more... well I'm on a project, I love our client.. I just hate my current employer :P

I believe I wont be feeling like this if RCG IT has a plan for its employees..I don't even have a career path anymore, I have been vocal about wanting to move to a different project, I just want a role that would support my work experience and path.. not a totally different path... now I don't know where I am heading...

P.S I hate my project manager... I guess she's not stupid, she just don't know how to do her job, and like the company, she simply doesn't care :P

Looking forward to the day that I will hand in my resignation letter, It's been on my hard drive for quite some time now.. :P will just change the date :P

* This is my blog.. I have all the right in the world to write anything that I feel writing :P

To my Lanzilot Part 2 :)

here's our story... i guess i should put an ending on it...

To my Lanzilot part 1

uhmm I guess di na ako makahintay ng months para maramdaman na balewala lang ako sayo... nag try ako mag connect sayo... tru text... but still kapag nsa house ka, u seems so cold... as if ayaw mo na akong mag text sayo...

sabi mo last time nagkasakit ka at na low bat ka... lagi naman ganun...ok lang naman yun e... ang babaw diba kung ikakagalit ko pa kung yun lang.. gusto ko lang naman maramdaman na importante ako sayo...

na all these years nandyan na ako sa utak mo, sa puso mo (letch ang drama no hehe) hindi lang dun sa ulo mo sa baba...

na sana paggising mo naiisip mo ako... at sana bago ka matulog naisip mo din ako... a simple gud morning and good nite will do... pero wala...

ano na nga ba ang basis ko...is it enough na masabi lang na boyfriend kita? bukod dun, ano pa yung reason para magbuo ng relationship...

I was hoping na you really want to work this out... pero I guess mali ako.. so yun na yun... tinapos ko na :(
tapos na... after 7 long years...

New Moon

I dont know what to say lol!

Jacob is so cute! handsome! with great body etc!
lol
I am really disappointed by the movie interpretation of the book, so I just don't want to comment more :)

Twilight Saga Addiction

Of course, as you might had seen my last post, about the twilight... the introduction now becomes an addiction....

I used to read novels and fiction books way back in college, mostly Sydney Sheldon's ... well I only read few though, maybe about three or four, all which I barely remember the titles...

I can say that I never been so attracted and eager to read a book other than the twilight saga...

After watching and reading twilight, I felt the need to continue with the story! I was so in love with Edward Cullen, and he keeps on running on my mind, err at least the character, how he loves Bella etc... I thought I never get over the passion for book 1 and luckily, 'New Moon' is already available... it's like quenching the thirst for blood haha.. and making me totally forgot about my addiction to book 1...

And totally made me get over Edward... but only to fall in love with Jacob Black!! haha... I never imagine Jacob, or Jake as what others calls him, as the main character, I thought he is just like Jesica or Mike, some extras in the scene, but the author gave some extra focus on him in book 2.

That's when I felt Jake totally made me forget about the Edward character... though, they may feel the same intensity of love.. i still find his, pure, willing to sacrifice and all.. not that Edward is not willing to do all that.. i don't know.. maybe because I also want him to be happy... I really felt bad for him... I cried most of the time for his pain... lol! Well of course, this may not be applicable to anyone... not that I have Edward now... I just love Jacob more hahaha

I wonder how 'New Moon' will be translated in a movie... I am anticipating their interpretation with the 'Werewolves' how the author described them in the book... And how will they interpret the tall Jake! since the character when he doesn't phased yet, when he is still human, has average height... not nearly 7ft I guess :)

'Eclipse' just continued Jake's pain ouch! hehe but I find some action here... well, the action that was more described in details that the one Edward and James had in 'Twilight'. And definitely everyone is in action here, not just Edward, well of course except for Bella :)

'Breaking Dawn' relieved my stress... I read the book in merely 1 and a half days... I barely sleep hahaha just to finish this... and one of my favorite part is..... Jacob's Imprinting... well the book describes imprinting as something among the werewolves that when they saw this particular person, they will know she/he is the one, their soulmates... and it will free them from any feelings with any person they in love with prior to the imprinting...and they can imprint to any person of any age!!!! This is the one I am really anticipating... I really want to free Jake from any pain, I guess he is really hurt to much and good thing, he is given someone that is really meant for her... after imprinting...every pain from Jake's heart has been removed... and I can see a bright future for him lol! producing the most powerful creatures as an offspring...with Reneesmee... Bella and Edward's Half Human, half Vampire daughter....

I really love how the story was laid... I can say I never been affected as much as this story affected me... I never been interested to Harry Potter books after watching all movie sequels... but this is really different... the author really touches her readers by heart... and she will make you forget about how you were passionately involved with the book prior to the one that you are reading... did I said it right? haha... howell...

I'm really waiting for the Midnight Sun to be released! but as I see it... it is merely same twilight story, but this time, on Edward's perspective, not sure though... well I am hoping to read about Jake's and Renesmee story though hahaha

Trying to Get Over with Edward Cullen

Yeah yeah I am really a Hopeless romantic!! I used to watched movies like these, I mean love stories and the like, but Twilight is really different!! It really got into me, and I really wanted to get over it!!!

I really am depressed hoping that one day, I'll have my own Edward Cullen!! duh, of course I don't want him to be a vampire!!!, I just want him to love me like a vampire! LOL, love me like Edward does with Bela!

hayyyyy Nakoh!!!! the characters portrayed their roles well I think, coz I felt that intense feeling when I was watching the movie! or is it just that hopeless romantic in me!!!

Duh! I really wanted to get over this, to get over with the movie, to get over with Edward Cullen, I'm itching to buy the book, to watch it again, to read reviews about the movie... well I guess I would be just making myself suffer!!!!

The sad part is, there will be sequels! so I'll definitely watch the coming movies again! and I'll be like this again! huhhuuh


Well, its not really the movie that struck me, its the way how Edward intensely love Bela, and hoping to have my own 'Edward' soon..... paulit ulit na yata ako haha

Felt Like a High School Crush

I'm too old for this lol! but remember the feeling when you were in high school and had a crush on somebody?

I first saw you few days after I started working with my current company. Well, yeah you're an officemate hehe...

I really like my impression about you, you got nice hair, thats what got struck me the first time hehe.. naku po patay na... parang obvious kung sino ka :P

I like your bod, I like your height! you're not that good looking haha.. no you are good looking, carry naman the whole package hehe

I feel like you're the pain in your group mate's a**es haha... I like you're voice...
I like that mala kenny roger's delivery man outfit hahaha no I don't like it... but you still have the guts to wear that kind haha... funny tlga... red cap, red polo ala delivery man, red shoes, duh! wag mo na isusuot yun ulit haha

I dunno kung napapansin mo ako...
I feel like nagpapapansin ka din waaa... no yan yung gusto ko isipin, I'm not pretty, im not even sexy for you to give your attention :P

but you always look at me in the eyes, paano ko nalaman? e nakatingin kasi ako sayo palagi, e di nag titinginan pla tayo? hahahaha

I remember one time, ayoko na tumingin sayo, kasi nahihiya na ako kakatingin hehe... pansin ko sa side ng eyes ko, naka tingin ka habang dumadaan ako, ayoko na tlaga tumingin, pero, you throw that stress ball on the wall, that made me stopped and well, looked at you... hehe.. nakatingin ka naman sa akin nun, at nag sabi ng 'sorry' in a cutey cutey voice, haha can't describe e... hindi na ako nakatulog nun hahaha

then there is this time, when dumadaan ako then, nagsabi ka ng malakas na 'Good morning!' 'Gud Evening' (e madaling araw na yun hehe OT ka)
alangan naman sabihan mo yung mga katabi mo nun... haha e ako lang ang tao dumadaan nun hay naku feel ko tlga ako yun hahaha

sometimes din, kapag daan ko bigla kayo kakanta... eww yung kanta nyo kasi sounds like oldie oldie haha pero cute na din.. I overheard the lyrics like, 'The stars are green someting wahaha
I dunno....

The last was unforgettable.. saka ko na iwewento hehe... but still, you don't even have the guts to ask for my number huhuhu

gusto ko na nga iwan sa may station mo hehe...
I heard that you applied for a L1 visa.. patay na ipapadala ka na naman sa US... sad ako hehe

yun kaya ako bad mood!!!!!!!!!

eto na lang song... enjoy!!!!!

So Close..

Oh my last post was about my havs pala :) I have two pairs and been wanting to buy more, but hell, my office mate, Ice, owner of Java Android, told something that made me realized that yeah, why would I spend PHP1,300 on these flip flops haha... I have 2 pairs and I think that is enough.

Last Friday, I wore a plain spandex tee, jeans and rubber shoes to work, this is so unusual for me since I never worn my rubber shoes for a year and a half lol... howell, kinda not in the mood days for me...

HUh? not in the mood?
here's something that I got from my bestfriend's multiply account

But, could never find the courage
Fell short of words, dead dumb stupid.
Feelings a-flow just within the cage
Into the game, a greenhorn, a kid.

Still, could never seize the chance
Muted by ignominy, a castaway.
Immobile, a warrior in a trance
Thrown into a fight, an easy slay.

Yet, could never hit the mark
Blinded by passion, target amiss.
Captivated, stripped of strength, stark
Unnerved, lost and struggling, in abyss.

So far, could never dare speak
Or put into words, of the bliss longed for.
Enslaved, life becomes so bleak
Waiting, on the hard cold floor.

So close,
But,
Still,
Yet,
So far…

It started as an admiration... now I don't know what to call it hehe